> Shrouded in darkness;

~~Sunday, February 8, 2009~~

10:07 AM

for the past few day i've been thinking...

y ppl always have to wait till the very last min then they know wat is the most important thing to them?...

someone i love have just been test have cancer....

i know it but i dun know how to react it...

even till now i know tt he only let 6 months to live...

i still dun know wat to say to him...

although now there is alot of ppl by his side...

some time he wit still hide n cry...

seeing him like tt... hurt me alot but i dun know wat to say...

he is always like a king to me... someone i have to respect n love...

a kingdom without him will fall...

but one day he have to left us, we all know tt...

so now wat can we do is to keep him company...

every hrs, every min, every sec...

we just wan him to know tt we are all beside him no better when...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, February 6, 2009~~

6:16 PM

once again i felt left out...

they are the one who ask me out..

but i feel like one o them dun like me there..

tok to him also dun look at me..

meeting out to study also never ask me along..

do they really treat me as friend?

i hurt me tt i have to ask myself tis question...

i really do hope tt we are friends...

i start to hate tis..

start to hate ppl around me...

i know wat i wan..

but i dun know how to do...

i wan ppl to look or me...

i wan friends tt always ask me out...

i wan super super close friends...

now i dun even damn to say i'm my best friend closest friend is me

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, January 29, 2009~~

6:13 PM

tis yrs new yrs...

money not as much as last yrs..

all because of the economy

but my dad still give the same...

how i wish to ask my dad to pack smaller..

but if i say he sure will get angry one.. better just shut up...

n same boring..

blackjack n tv only..

no win no lose or 5 straight days

tis yrs new yrs very early...

dun feel like new yrs at all...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, January 17, 2009~~

6:04 PM

open sch till now is abt 5 months le...

for the first 3 months... i love it...

all the of us are very close...

but as months past... i feel something different le...

doing thing themselves... never ask us...

ppl tt are closer to us are closer wit others...

ppl like dun even wan to tok to us...

thought i say nvm lor... but it *ucking painful...

more i think abt it... the more painful it get...

but at least i still have the gal wit me...

n not all of them are different... some still stay the same...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, December 7, 2008~~

11:25 PM

Girl: hey whats up

Boy: nm just listening to music

Girl: i heard your getting you G.E.D.

Boy: yeah i thought it was a good idea

Girl: it is im proud of you

Boy: yeah thnx well listen i g2g bye

"Last message recived 12/12/07

"Next day"

Girl: hi

Boy: hi whats up

Girl: nm you

Boy: i got my G.E.D.

Girl: OMG!!! IM SO PROUD OF YOU

Boy: yeah thnx

Girl: i have to tell you something

Boy: go ahead

Girl: well i love you. i always have i cared about you and your always in my heart

Boy: thats cool i love you too but your too young your 14 and i'm 17

Girl: but i love you, age shouldn't matter

Boy: i know u do and i love u but i found this girl and shes my age

Girl: i just i thought......(crying, she logs off)

The next day the boy turns on the news and hears that a 14 year old girl cut her wrists and

wrote on the wall "Age never matters"

The boy then recives a call from the girl he chose

and she says "I'm leaving you for the one i love.

That night the boy hangs himself and writes on the wall

"She's right. Age doesn't matter. I love you and always will.

maybe age really dun matter... but still to some gal is not easy to accept younger guys... but if they really love each other... maybe there is not so many problem le...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, December 1, 2008~~

11:17 PM

friend can said is very important to humans life...

one day u feel like crying♥

♥call me♥

♥I dont promise that i will make u laugh♥

♥but i can cry with u♥

♥If one day u want to run away♥

♥dont be afraid to call me♥

♥I dont promise to ask u to stop♥

♥but i can run with u♥

♥If one day u dont want to listen to anyone♥

♥call me♥

♥I promise to be there for u but also promise to remain quiet♥

♥But one day if u call♥

♥and there is no anwser♥

♥come fast to see me♥

♥Perhaps i need you♥

♥Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk♥

♥or how close you are♥

♥and send it to the person who sent it to you♥

♥Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will♥.

♥Remember♥

♥everyone needs a friend♥

♥dunt ever leave the one u love for the one u like♥

♥ because the one u like will leave u for the one they love♥

♥tonite ur true love will relize how much they love u between 1 and 4 in the morning♥

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, November 6, 2008~~

10:41 PM

how long can a person not talk?

noramlly when i start talking , i can't stop...

but when i'm at home, when i'm alone ... i dun really like to open my mouth...

for the past 4 hrs... i haven't speak at all...

is no tt no one at home... my mum, my brother they are all at home...

but is like i have nothing to say to them n dun know wat to say to them ....

sometime they make me feel like there are not my family member...

but more like someone i dun know n dun care abt...

when then i can find someone who love me???...

when can i feel being love???

i hate to think tt i'm not being love but tt is how i feel now...

Will you ever notice me...